The bored Law-ctor

This is not possible. This is absurd. This cannot be happening. I used to hate you so much. I despised you. You were always mean to me. To put it simply, you were an asshole.  It was absurd that I found myself drawn to you so much. You had become extremely irresistible to look away from. Be it in class, be it back in the society, be it in dance class or be it in those boring parties. I used to despise your existence. You always beat me at everything. And it all came naturally to you (or so I think). I had to put in so much effort each time to even get closer to you. We were planning on having a hate club in your name. Like the I hate Rachel club.  All of a sudden, I would look forward to your arrival. I was lucky to be seated in the last bench. I can keep staring at your jhumkas all the while. Sometimes I'd get this urge to walk up to you and flick those jhumkas. During lunch break, while your talking to your friends, I would get drawn to come to you and tuck your fringe behin...

There is something so endearing about rains and us. Right from our first date. It was a rainy evening and you were a good 30 minutes late and couldn't be more sorry. To this day you continue to be late; though you're not as sorry now :/  Our first date was quite an eventful one. You stormed into the bar angry, agitated, cursing the rains. You walked in wearing a raincoat. I was like who the fuck uses a raincoat these days. But once you got off the raincoat you looked drop dead gorgeous.  It took 2 drinks and a fuck ton of ranting about the rains for you to calm down and smile finally. And another couple of drinks to get chattier and a few more to unleash yourself. Do you even remember how drunk you were? We had to leave your bike at the bar and get you a cab. You wanted to talk more and I got onto the cab and madam started snoring  within two minutes.  Have I ever told you how beautiful that nose ring is? Million stars on the sky wouldn't be enough to beat that diamo...

This May 17th we're gonna celebrate our 15th weddings anniversary. Isn't it strange how our relationship has evolved over the past several years. It seems like I met you just yesterday. I know you never agree with this,  but I am now pretty certain that yours was love at first sight. The turn of events that led to our first encounter and the events that happened that day are quite unforgettable.  You came running to save me from getting ragged by seniors. After getting bullied and yelled at by seniors, you finally were able get me off telling that you needed me to help you with the annual day preps. I don't know what kind of charm you'd cast on those seniors that they sent me with you so easily.  'Take my number and the next time you're getting ragged just give me a missed call. Also, nice dimples'. These were your exact words. That was when I knew you had a thing for me. The next few days were quite interesting. The way you'd find some reason and call m...

Aapki nazron ne samjha.. each time I listen to this song, it reminds me of you. It reminds me of us. I wish you were here with me today. Mere andar ek toofan sa hai aur mera saahil door kahi baitha hua hai. Shayad tum bhi mere baare main hi soch rahe hoge.  I wish you were with me here because all this Covid anxiety is driving me nuts. I've been stuck home, alone for the past- I don't know how many days. The video calls are getting too monotonous and the virtual kisses and hugs make no justice how good you are.  I miss how you'd come all the way just to steal a kiss from me. I miss that period between your text and the sound of your bike in front of my house.  I very fondly remember the last time we made love and am longing for it to happen again. I miss your warm lips, your hands around my waist, on my breasts. I miss lying on your back all night while you tell me all your work stories and keep telling, 'fuck that. Tell me what's happening at your end'. I miss ...

Today I thought of you. Just like any other day whenever I see your posts on insta. But today was a bit special. As I was staring outside the window in office, I saw an eagle steer low and grab this squirrel and fly back. The squirrel tried valiantly to get off the clutches of the eagle and with each attempt I could see it's energy depleting and finally it gave up. Much like my attempts to get over you.  You were like the smell of fresh soil just before it rained. Intoxicating and a promise of a joyous, merriful life. I don't remember exactly how you came into my life; but I do remember our lengthy conversations on the corridors of college, just before and after our classes. You were so charming, you were witty. You know the kind of feeling they say you get when you see someone you love, I have the exact feeling when I see you. You're so full of life and energy, passionate about what you do and god you're beautiful. I don't think I'll be able to erase how you lo...