Untangling the knot

 I had been to the beach last night. Sat in the place where we often sat. There was a kind of emptiness. The sound of the waves hitting the shore didn't really hit the right kind of note it would hit when I were with you. As I sat and watched the moon slowly getting swallowed by the waters, I realised how much similar our lives was to the moon and the sea; the mutual attraction both of them have towards each other. How the sea jumps in joy at the sight of the moon every night and how the moon falls for this hyper excited, 'perpetually in a valence state' sea, that it can no more resist the energy of the sea and eventually gets gulped by it. 

I am unable to bear the pain of separation. I have never been this dull and silent, like the silent seas during new moon.

 I started walking back; I turned back to see if you were walking next to my footprints on the sand. I didn't see a second pair of footprints next to mine. I had a sense of emptiness and a sense of turmoil inside me, at the same time. 

You know love, each time I saw you there was a fountain of words, emotions, and expressions in my heart and I all I could do was to look at you and smile; smile because I was the luckiest person on the planet. 

There is a storm brewing within me right now and I don't know anyone that could calm it down other than you. I want to just lie down on your lap, close my eyes and stay for as long as I want to while you gently caress my hair, your fingers intertwined with my hair. But I know that is not possible. 

Disheartened, I walked back home only to feel your absence more. 

Dinners are incomplete without you sitting across the table and gloating how great a cook you are.  I cannot sleep peacefully because the only place I'd find so much solace is in your arms. I don't remember the last time I smiled because the only person that ever makes me smile is not with me right now. 

Can two people be in love so much that they forget the rest of the world? I'd say yes. We've cut ties with everything and promised that we'd have each other's backs. We'd promised that our love shall blossom in this world that thinks us being lovers is a crime. 

And now, I don't find you by my side having my back.  Please come back. I need my lover to untangle the knots in my heart ; I need my lover to hold my hands and walk by my side on the beach; I need my lover because the world around me right now doesn't appreciate the many colors of the rainbow as we did; I need my lover to cuddle and sleep with; I need my lover because I am not able to make do with your scent from your unwashed clothes; I need my lover because each time I wanted to tell the world something I don't have your ears to whisper to; I need my lover because I know that we both are on the right path and we don't need to prove anything to this binary world; I need my lover because I don't like distances.